Survivor

It was not the same day compared with others recently, as I reflected upon few things. Death ends a life, but it does not end a relationship, which struggles on in the Survivor’s mind towards some resolution, which it may never find. I read these lines in a book.

Things have changed to the extent that Karma has started inspiring certain people. I am a great believer in the fact that one has its destiny, and Karma is genuinely what I believe in.

Situations encountered over the past few months where I am not allowing the so-called others to enter, and whenever the opportunity presents, I panicked and fled. I felt disloyal to the only one so far I ever loved in almost liking someone else.

But with time, I did realize, how much longer could I live this way, forever on my guard lest human feelings catch me unaware?

Freud-himself- once said that we should, of course, react according to our reason for the little things in life.

But for huge decisions, we should heed what our unconscious tells us.
Well, not every time.

With time, I have tried many things so far to confront who I am.

I was wondering what life would have been if certain things didn’t change? All I say, even I would have been alive.

At times, I am agog with the way things are in life. Also, I feel lonely at times, but there is something that keeps me going.

Maybe it is some inspiration from few friends. And how they overcame the asperity thrown at them. Or it might be lyrics of my favourite songs and or specific podcasts that I have kept for myself when I get bugged. Books help a lot, movies too and trust me talking to people also does. There are many sources for inspiration.

But I like to challenge myself to overcome on my own, fighting it out within.
At times, it’s ambulatory. Eventually, things do pick up very quickly.

In Pursuit of self-found happiness, I ensure I am not bedizened with false optimism.

Early Morning or late in the night, I was always fascinated with the thought of everyone being a survivor in this world. Somehow, people survive. Whether we like it or hate it, they survive.

With some maxims (not the ones I collect), people tend to move irrespective of the direction.

I might be young, callow in most things, but I am getting an opportunity in life to cross off many items.

In my past year, life has made me float with confidence, and it has also made me come down. It’s just that my understanding of these subtle changes has become microscopic through my own eyes and inner voice.

These words inspire,

Risin’ up, back on the street Did my time, took my chances
Went the distance, now I’m back on my feet
Just a man and his will to survive

So many times, it happens too fast
You change your passion for glory
Don’t lose your grip on the dreams of the past
You must fight just to keep them alive

Face to face, out in the heat Hangin’ tough, stayin’ hungry
They stack the odds ’til we take to the street
For we kill with the skill to survive

Risin’ up, straight to the top Have the guts, got the glory
Went the distance, now I’m not gonna stop
Just a man and his will to survive

I agree the rival is within me and no one else. External enemies are so superficial. That’s just to spice up this life game.

The song by Survivor features my pop-culture idol, Rocky Balboa.

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